i'm not sure why, but i always seem to get a lot done on sundays. being alone is depressing. i don't like it, probably b/c from birth i've had someone w/ me 98% of the time. not now though. this is when i'm on the computer the most, b/c it occupies a lot of time. it comes in very useful.

on friday chris and i went to the doctor for the much anticipated ultrasound...and i'm having a boy. i wanted a girl, but am very happy regardless. i saw the heart beating, saw him moving around, saw his little hands. his name is christopher gavin. chris cried when he heard the news, he was so happy-but i don't like getting too emotional in front of strangers. i know this-we will raise him to be a little gentleman, like his father.

i am so ready to get out of the state! i want to get away, stay the night in some motel. i like that feeling. i like roadtrips. but sadly, they don't come to often. when i was a junior in high school i went to nashville for part of a club thing, and it was great. i loved it...not so much dealing w/ the people, but the feeling of excitement, especially arriving to the big city at night when all the lights stretched to forever. we went to the opryland hotel (didn't stay there, though i would've liked to), a very, very pretty place. all sorts of things there-i'd encourage anyone making a trip to nashville to visit. i don't quite remember how long we were there, but i didn't want to leave. coming back to my tiny hometown i remember it was about12 in the morning, pouring, and the streets were completely empty. looked like a ghost town. kinda fit my mood.

i'm going to try and visit mr. p, my old drafting instructor this week, before the schools let out. he's been one of my absolute favorite teachers ever, a big influence in my life. he always wanted me to become a drafter, work for the bia in a nearby town w/ a bunch of other indians b/c i did so well in class, but my heart wasn't in it. he didn't approve of chris, he wanted me to be w/ someone rich, someone w/ some great career. he always joked i'd end up w/ a million kids, and i'd argue, not that soon. that's why i'm reluctant to make the visit. he'll be supportive. i know he will.

as for now, that's what i've got to say.
until next time!